Haven’t posted in a bit I was just having some thoughts youtube has been my dream since I was 12 but you know I haven’t been very consistent with it because of my lack of self confidence and motivation It’s kinda been my struggle for the past 3 years of youtube not only does it effect me mentally and physically it bothers the hell out of me because I wanna be able to do what I love but at the same time there’s something stopping me I’ve been through such a rough path throughout my life After loosing my grandmother it’s been really tough on me lately makes me loose what’s left in me because she brought my happiness and motivation to a new level because she was always there for me and always knew what I should do and help me succeed on what I wanted to achieve
Now I know it’s not an excuse for this it’s been my struggle for so long that’s why I go on and off that’s why you see when I post I say I’m coming back and I never come back I just loose myself I loose my happiness and I feel like I can’t do it I’m scared to fail I’m scared to not succeed I’m scared to fall but that’s only human right ?
It’s werid how our emotions can just block us from what we really love and than we go on a different path to what we don’t want isn’t that strange ? I’ve been having second doubts about my feelings on why I really feel as if I can’t do it I mean I’ve noticed something ? As I’ve been staying up really late editing photos that I’m very interested in photography and don’t get me wrong being a YouTuber is my number one goal and is always gonna be first in line but than here comes editing am I really finding myself ? #photography#edits#gaming#photo#gamer#setup
itaru's true form
but the way he walk up to kantoku got me 😂
Ready to do battle at Bathurst! My take on this year’s @tripleeightraceengineering Pro-Am entry in the @bathurst12hr at the end of this month in which I’ll be racing on @thegranturismo. Created from scratch starting with a plain matte black wrap then applying colours, patterns and decals as accurately as possible to replicate the real thing. Swipe ⬅️ to see a real photo (credit @sixoneonedesigns)