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With the last winter moon upon us, I couldn't help but to write something tonight on my drive home... . . As a child, I would talk to the moon. Using it as a journal, my words carried, written on its large, white and blank surface. I would blab about my day, talk about my dreams and pray for people closest to me. The darkens around, encompassed me. The night frost, caught My darkest secrets, like whispers upon the chill of the air. Tunnel vision, always gazing upward towards the unknown. Mesmerized by the pull of the moon, like the constant waves, soothing and crashing over and over. As it seems to lull itself to sleep. The darkness reveals the deepest parts of me, as deep as the sky can reach. The darkens reveals so much more then the sparkling specks of light. It sees me. . . @thegingerback_gorilla I know I already thanked you for sharing your writings and I don't mean to over kill, but wherever I feel hesitant to post my writings I think of expanding my comfort zone because of you. . . #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #fullmoon #tryingoutmywriting #poems #latenightpoems #wintermoon #outofmycomfortzone


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Going through my old paperwork etc. It is crazy how much I use to write and draw. To see where my heart and mind were in those times and remembering those feelings. . I have napkins with random partial writings, tiny peices of paper, anything I could get my hands on to draw or to write on. . . I'm no where close to writing like the amazing @thegingerback_gorilla and his beautifully detailed and deep, descriptive flow. But I thought I would step out of my comfort zone to share one of my writings. I am nervous to share this but here is something I wrote a long while ago. . . Quietness: Cleaning our worldly possessions every day. Necessities, THINGS that make our everyday chores uniformly messy. Our houses have clear windows, that open and close to let a small breeze from the familiar Earth come in and breathe life into what we forget. I gaze out into the world from my small window, wondering when the next opprorunity I will get to explore the dirt and capture the wind into the bottle neck of my lungs, that so desperately yearn for the purity of the seasons. O! how my skin wants to jump off my bones to play. My eyes struggle to open as the spider webs clear, brightness, hope, HOME. The sound of the trees swaying and clinking back-and-forth, the birds singing and chatting about who caught the biggest worm. Hearing the water churn and crash and flow over millions of rocks that turn in to soft sand. Feeling the wind whisper in my ear telling me to fly, as if it were pushing me upon my back. Bare feet digging in like roots, feeling and soaking up what mother Earth has to offer. To grow wild and become one with nature. . . I looked to the sky and far beyond the horizon and I day dream of that perfect day of being home and with our mother. . . #writing #rideordie #puttingmyselfoutthere #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #momoffive #momlife #oldwrittings #motherearth


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This little bugger gave us another scare a couple weekends ago. We were at the ER with his stomach again. I am always an emotional mess internally, while it goes on and outwardly emotional afterwards. I tremble with so much worry and tight chest that I just get physically tired. . . I am more than happy to report, He is smiling, energetic, healthy and still kicking ass at life. . . We got to do a family trip to a new park and it was just wonderful to be able to play with the kids and just enjoy the weather and each other's company. I am grateful for the life given and time spent together. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #momof2 #stepmomof3 #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #alwaysfamily #ilovemylittlebigfamily


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Here is a project I did for a close friend of mine. She goes leaps and bounds for other people and as I forgot to return something to her, I decided I needed to make her a special gift to go with her decor, in addition to returning an item to her. . . I have a long list of people I need to say Thank You to. Things I've always wanted to do or say to these special folks and have never gotten around to doing it. This year for me, is all about opening up and giving to others as often as possible. . . I really do think of all of you often. Yes! Even all of you reading this! Lol I'm always thinking of how your day is going, if you got to smile today etc. I have a huge heart and I feel very deeply about things and people. I always thought it needed to be contained or only let out a little at a time. But not anymore. :) . . I hope you alllll are having a kick ass week! Keep pushing forward! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #woodburning #gotwood? #grain #gowiththegrain #flow #artsandcrafts #fortheloveofart


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This year has been such a blast! And so much growing and progress in so many ways! . . This year I got to join the masses again and brave the Portland Hunt Expo! With some close framily and meeting new friends. For me, this time around was Connecting with like minded wonderful ladies, that I've only spoke with via internet. To meet and hangout with these bad ass folks made my month! I can't get over the comradery in the different groups I've come in to and getting to know. They are inspiring, smart, kind and all around bighearted folks! . . I can't wait to see all of you again in some soon ish planned adventures or next year or next expo! I can't wait to meet others I missed and building some more lasting memories! Thank you all for such a wonderful time. Side note: I ran in to my kick ass neighbors at the expo! Was so awesome! And fun fact: I got lost trying to get out of that big ass building and it took me about 35 ish min to exit! Haha! . . #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #ilivetohuntandhunttolive #ieatmeat #ladyhunter #momlife #momoffive #iprovide #primal #togetherwerise #loveoneanother #comradery


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I've been trying to find the words to describe this last month... The last 30 ish plus days ago I accepted a challenge, Spencer and Paul decided to host. I had no "goal" or reason for joining, other then just being curious and motivated to try something new! . . I had a slight idea of what the Carnivore challenge was. But what I didn't know, was a much longer list. I was blown away by how quickly the group grew and how amazing each person was/is. I wholeheartedly appreciate every single person in the group and I couldn't have done it without the badass #carniarmy . . . To be honest it was hard to start, but I did it!!! I almost bowed out a couple weeks in because of how much weight I lost. (I've been working on my gains forever). But when I stayed in (thanks to Paul), I realized a lot about myself, my body and mindset. The number on the scale never matters. It's how you truly feel. And dam it! I felt good, healthy, strong! Clear minded, motivated, sleep is so much better and so much more! . . This amazing #carniarmy has my heart strings. We pushed each other, had tons of laughs, inside jokes (the Joe Rogans) lol. We were transparent and honest about our faults, shared our lives out side the challenge and so on. I didn't just gain cooking knowledge or accumulated wisdom about my body, mind and food for fuel. But I gained some really wonderful friendships. We all came together from different walks of life and kicked this challenge in the rump roast! . . I feel it's important to acquire knowledge about the animals that we consume for food. With that said... here is my first time skinning, cooking and eating beaver tail!(with my oldest son)Inspired by @stevenrinella and @meateater . . . Beavers are freaking awesome animals! *They use their tail to slap the top of the water to scare predators away. *They change their environment more then any other animal, except humans. *They are the 2nd largest rodent. Semi aquatic. *The tail is used to store fat and regulate body temperature. I will be eating this again. Lol @spencerkirkseyofficial @travisbackyardbbq @grillingwithkoda @_mjtimmerman_ @lisathehalogriller @seattlebutcherswife @cookinwithswiss @let_r_ripp


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Adios Colombia! I 💜 you even though you dropped a river’s worth of rain on me during my bike tour of Bogotá! We ended by playing a game of ‘throw the rock at paper triangles with dynamite inside and make them go bang’ it’s called Tejo and it needs to be a thing in the UK immediately! So much love for this incredible country and its people. So many great experiences! Thanks to @emerliehknight to sharing it with me! #adventuring #colombia #travel #livebigorgohome


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Good Morning 😍🇳🇿 #newzealand #auckland


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A bit rusty. I need to learn new stuff. But it felt good to get some inspiration and pick up the guitar again. . . Jackson wants to watch a movie and is over music night. Which I totally get considering its 1130pm... lol . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #musicfillsmysoul #hungryforlife #guitars #pluckingstrings #calusedfingers #bloodyfingers #stringinstruments #goodmemories


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And the winner of our customer photo contest is....... @unbound.wanderer ❤️ Congrats & thanks to everyone that submitted their customer photos! We love seeing what adventures you take your @antlersbyanela on! 🌲🌲💕 Also how sweet is this caption by @unbound.wanderer ❤️Thank you everyone for the love & support! . . #Repost @unbound.wanderer with @get_repost ・・・ As an avid nature woman, hunter everything outdoors, I was excited to see jewelry that I felt fit me and my adventures best. . . I have the pleasure of being the owner, to this beautiful, handmade antler/ bead necklace from @antlersbyanela . She is a soon to be first time momma, with a passion for the outdoors. She is anxious to share that love of the outdoors with her soon to be bundle of joy and I seriously can't thank her enough for her craft and what it represents for me. You are one of a few ladies I really admire for what you do. *Make sure to give her a follow.* . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #antlers #fortheloveofnature #fortheloveoftheoutdoors #treesaremytemples #forestfairy #hunting #conservation #hunter #provide #honor


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As an avid nature woman, hunter everything outdoors, I was excited to see jewelry that I felt fit me and my adventures best. . . I have the pleasure of being the owner, to this beautiful, handmade antler/ bead necklace from @antlersbyanela . She is a soon to be first time momma, with a passion for the outdoors. She is anxious to share that love of the outdoors with her soon to be bundle of joy and I seriously can't thank her enough for her craft and what it represents for me. You are one of a few ladies I really admire for what you do. *Make sure to give her a follow.* . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #antlers #fortheloveofnature #fortheloveoftheoutdoors #treesaremytemples #forestfairy #hunting #conservation #hunter #provide #honor


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It has been a while since I have posted anything. Or anything of value... I give fast pace glimpses of my life through insta story. Although fun, my life has way more depth then I give credit to and what I share. I will do better at slowing down and sharing what's on my mind heart more often. With that said here is something of meaning. . . Long story short: . We are doing 22 pushups for 22 days to help raise awareness for military suicide. (A young gentleman in a grip chat I'm in mentioned to the group to add this to our routine.) . . I post shorter clips in my story along with suicide hotlines. If you ever get in that mindset military or not definitely text or call some of these numbers. If you need an ear to listen you can message me personally. I am not a professional but I can be that stepping stone for that courage to find some help. . . On the second video we decided to say what we are thankful for with each pushup. I really think it's important to say out loud or write down things you are grateful for in your life. Keeping your mental health up to par can be difficult at times. I Just wanted you to know that you are not alone. . . Side note: My sister and I recently found each other almost 2 years ago now♡ . . #keeppushingforward #reachout #BFORWARDFITNESS #coffee #truegrit #nevergiveup #flexeveryday #lifteachotherup #TOGETHERWERISE #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #22FOR22 #Isaluteyou #wearefreebecauseofthebrave #YOUMATTER


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Scottsdale shenanigans with the ladies & our men at Waste Managment .. plus a little bar hopping to end our Saturday night! Always doing the most - lifes too short & tomorrow is not guaranteed! 💜 . #Scottsdale #shenanigans #goodvibes #Jerseygirls #shecalledithercape #weekends #barhopping #Arizonachic #mylife #friends #doingthemost #tomorrowsnotpromised #Wastemanagement #scottsdalewascrazy #livebigorgohome #makingmemories #foreveryoung #latinachic #mybirthdaymonth


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Du måste tagga ner! (🇬🇧You need to chill) I've always had people tell me I'm thinking too big, that I'm an idealist and that I have too many and too big projects going on. That I should settle. You are all wrong 🙃 🌵 #typeism #livebigorgohome #dreamon #tagganer #elonstype #lettring #type #typedesign #cactus #spiky #calmdown @taylorswift & thanks for helping me think @wicked.fig!


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Well, here it is folks! My first time being a guest on a hunting cast. To say I was nervous is an understatement... . . I really am humbled and absolutely appreciate all of the support from my friends, family and hunting community! All the encouraging words and advice over the last few years about this journey of becoming a hunter, has been motivating and inspiring! I am nowhere close to where I want to be as a hunter. But I'm not giving up. I hope I did a satisfactory job telling a little bit of my story and my "why" behind hunting. I truly appreciate you all! . . Bruce from @whitetailrendezvous is a master at making it easy and comfortable as he leads the cast in to a good conversation, getting a little peek in to my life and how I started hunting. . . Thank you again for having me on and I'm looking forward to future casts with you! . . Link in my bio, to head straight over and listen to the episode. You can also find it on many podcast platforms as well as his YouTube channel. . . @thewildinitiative you are mentioned, as well as @followherarrow ♡ . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #HUNTHARDHUNTPROUD #huntingseasoniscoming #podcasts #huntingcommunity #camaraderie


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Was such a great, much needed weekend in beautiful central Oregon! Beautiful weather, beautiful views, beautiful people and just an all around feeling of release, relaxing, time to think and time on the trail to hone in more on building my riding skills. . . P.s. Thank you so much mom @bluesbaby53 and Justin for all the meat! It's soooo yummy! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #braplife #whenindoughtthrottleout #followyourdreams #ilivefortheoutdoors #theoutdoorsisapartofme #easternoregonhasmyheart #centraloregon #greenmachine #dirtbikegirl #girlswithbikes #trails #dirtonthetires #mudonthetires #klx125 #letsride


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December is here!! . . The big Holidays are upon us and as quickly as they arrive they quickly disappear. It's been amazing spending much needed time with family and friends this season, getting extremely full on tons of food! . . But It's also been a bit difficult, after losing my aunt only a few months ago... first holidays without the people you love are always difficult. Her birthday would be this month as well... but knowing my aunt and how she was, she would tell us to keep our chins up and don't stop doing the things you love. I push forward for many reasons, but today the top reason is because I know my aunt would kick my ass if she saw that I wasn't up for the challenges. . . So, here is to pushing forward in all the challenges that life brings. Here is to all the loved ones here or not. If you need someone to vent to I'm here for you. Life is supposed to be shared not just holidays. I hope you enjoy your day and keep pushing forward. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #swollife #gymlife #strongwoman #strength #coffee #truegrit #nevergiveup #flexeveryday #kickyourownass


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All the Thanksgiving multiple family fun! And the weekend isn't over! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #thanksgiving #ilovemyfamily #iloveourlittlebigfamily


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When we go out riding, I can't help but to be in my own head. I can't think too much about anything else besides what obstacles I'm facing on the trail and my bike. But there are moments where I ask myself why I love to ride? . . I realized that anything that challenges me and my abilities, mentally and physically, things that are hard are things I enjoy most. Especially when it's outdoors. . . Riding dirt bikes (anything outdoors) makes you a better person. What I'm trying to get at is, that everything I do outdoors weather it's hunting, riding, hiking etc. They all have a few things in common. They push my limits. They test my strength physically and mentally. None of these adventures will let me quit. You hike/climb what seems like endless miles into the wilderness, you can't just give up. You still have miles to get back to the parking lot or camp. Your legs are burnt out? The mountain doesn't care. You ride miles in to the forest, you crash your bike and it still runs, you get back on that bike and ride. You let go of the mistakes or accidents and keep looking forward. You literally have no other option but to keep going. . . Trust me there are always tears shed and frustrations and obstacles. But as soon as you finish what you had set out to do and then some! It's a feeling that's hard to describe. You look back on the trail you accomplished. You remember the things you once couldn't do before, but now you kicked it's ass! Obstacles may be scary or frustrating in the moments that they are happening. But those challenges are molding you, pushing you and creating a stronger you. I love the outdoors no matter what it is. But coming to a better realization of why I love these adventures so much is mind blowing. Also sharing them with others that do and feel the same way. Priceless. . . We all start somewhere. And I'm excited for more obstacles to face on the trail. To become stronger and challenge myself to larger heights. On and off the trail. . . Here's to all of your adventures! May they be hard, may they shed light in to your life. May they challenge your limits and show you how strong you really are. . #rideordie #momoffive #livebigorgohome


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Earlier this month we celebrated my wonderful Mom and her birthday. As she puts it f*@!'n 55 and ALIVE! . . A year ago around this time she was helping me hand out food to the Salem homeless community under the bridge. When all of a sudden she got an extreme headache. She sat in the truck to relax and stay warm. But the pain kept getting worse. Luckily her boyfriend was there with us and took her home thinking it was just a migraine, until she vomited... he brought her to the hospital and they immediately bused her over to Portland where she was in the ICU... she had a brain aneurysm. I almost lost my mom... It's hard to say and to even think about. . . I'm so grateful and so honored that I get to call her mom. She is my rock and my bestfriend. She brings light everywhere she goes. Her smile is contagious and her wild spirit is energetic. Her strength in her self and in life are inspiring! You are beautiful inside and out Mom! Happy Birthday! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #mymomisamazing #brainaneurysm #survivor #mymomisaworrior


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I've been thinking about this move for a while now. Thought I'd give it a shot. . . A couple things that made me think of trying this, is the awesome @lorinjlynch and all of his balance strengthening! If you haven't checked his page out you should. . . The second reason is, that no matter what heavy leg workout I do to strengthen, I don't have the stamina in my legs like I want. When riding dirt bikes, it drives me nuts that my legs burn out! It can be challenging, between the standing balance, and squeezing the bike while bracing for bumps, rocks etc. On the trail. So, I figured this is the closest I could get to recreating that feeling. This video is my first attempt but the sets after I got better with each one. I tried slow squats, faster pace etc. Did as many reps as I could in 4 sets.. . . It felt amazing! I really think this is going to help my stamina. What I didn't anticipate is the foot muscles and calves getting a killer workout! My feet apparently need some work as well. . . I have some ideas in the books for multiple things. Although it's slow moving, I'm grateful it is moving forward. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #publicland #BHA #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #swollife #gymlife #strongwoman #strength #PRACTICEMAKESPROGRESS #workdontwhine #imbusy #+1 #dirtbikegirl #girlswithbikes #trails #braplife #couplethatridestogetherstaystogether #greenmachine


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I'm extremely grateful for my friend Melissa @pacificnwwanderer , adventure sister! . . This summer was filled with limitless and beautiful adventures! This specific trip of our long hike up Mt. Theilsen, we decided after to visit Crater Lake!! This has been a HUGE bucket list trip for me. I've lived in Oregon most my life, had a couple close calls of actually going but it never worked out. . . When I walked up over the hill and laid eyes on this wonder, it blew me away! It truly left me speechless. I can't wait to go back and explore some more! . . *I had more of a sentimental post for this but it kicked ne off before I could post it* but I'm still grateful and excited for more outdoors. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #summitsisters #craterlake #easternoregonhasmyheart #wondersoftheworld


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Soooo incredibly happy to have all of us together. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #familymovienight


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Hunting season this year was, as always, beyond words. To tell any stories from this trip wouldn't even begin to do it justice. . The mountains are an endless place of finding balance, being challenged, facing your fears, using your mental and physical strength and in the silence of the forest only hearing your breath and light steps. From the sun cresting up over the tops of rolling hills to the end of the day when light is little and exhaustion sets in. The colorful sky as the sun drifts to sleep is one of the most satisfying views. This was a trip we both really needed. . One story I will tell, is how for the first time ever, I had a cow elk in my crosshairs. I never knew how I would truly feel with an animal in my sights and finger on the trigger. . It was opening day and we decided to check out a spot we got an elk at last year. My cousin was leading and as I learned from last year that I need my head more on a swivel. I spotted TWO cow elk down a steep hill. The window was small. I had a rush of excitement as I tried to get my cousins attention. By the time my cousin had walked back over, one cow had moved out of sight. The second one stopped and eventually saw us and stared up at me. I was almost frozen in time. My cousin says "It's all yours" and I quickly came to. I slowly knelt down, drew my rifle, went through the motions of aiming at its vitals, thinking about wind, angle etc. all in a matter of milliseconds. I took the cold air in to my lungs and slowly release my breath, finger on trigger, ready to squeeze and then the window got too small. The cow moved forward and I didn't have a good ethical shot... I blew it. That was the calmest I'd ever been. It was a rush of excitement followed by a rush of disappointment and to go through every thing I did wrong and what I did right. It's hard to let go of something like that. But it is what comes with the territory. It's a learning process and even though we got skunked this year I had a lot of lessons and things to improve for next year. . In closing, I think John Muir said it best. "When we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it is hitched to everything else in the universe. "


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November nights in the desert are freezing cold...and there was no hot (or even warm) water.🥶 🌞But...waking up to this beautiful adventure-filled day was heavenly. Life is short...Hop In! • • • • • • •#raw_fall1 #raw_community #raw_wheels #raw_world #raw_skies #raw_allnature #raw_colours #raw_depthoffield #raw_vip_gold #raw_mod #raw_kingdom #teammate_raw_fall1 #desert #redsand #jeep #livelovelaugh #livebigorgohome #wadirum


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I'm excited for Katie running her first cross country meet today! 1.8 miles in 18 min flat, side by side with one of her friends. We are so proud of you Buggy! We love you and congratulations on kicking some serious butt today! You were flying! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #crosscountrymeet #shewasrunning #flylikethewind #shesgotwingsonherfeet #powerthrough #proudofourkids


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I have been mauling over what I should post, for days now. I had something written out yesterday but I decided not to post it. No words seem right. . . After a big hike/climb, I go through this "After Summit Blues" for a short time. The emotions I feel are indescribable and sometimes hard to organize and put a name to it. But it usually consists of life and what it means, about how special my family is and the big, deep questions about myself and my purpose. (As a mom of 5 I don't get a ton of time to have lengthy thoughts about anything.)lol . . The trail, the difficulty, the challenges I face on the mountain... it changes something in me every time. It's like I black out the entire climb then a week later it all hits me. This time, it still hit me but I thought I wasn't as excited or grateful enough, that maybe I missed what the mountain taught me... . . I can't ever explain how much I have ALWAYS felt connected to the Wilderness. In short, It's apart of me and when I thought I lost it... I got scared. It made me second guess EVERYTHING I'm doing or not doing. . . But then I look back on the videos that I took of our recent climb and you can HEAR the excitement in my voice! *perspective * There are a lot of things I'm facing here at home on top of life, overwhelming stuff at times and my plate seems to be over flowing. But, I read a post today by the amazing @brandonlilly3 And it kick started me to go through whatever I'm going through. To move forward. "To embrace it all." To not give up because this is where I dreamt of being. The good always comes with the bad but how you perceive it and your reaction to it is the key to your success and continued happiness. I am thankful for all of you folks who lay it all out there, pulling people up even when you feel defeated. Thank you Brandon. . . +1 #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #workdontwhine #embraceitall #dontgiveup #mttheilsen #hiking #chickswhoclimbmountains #mountainclimbers #summitsisters #ilovetheoutdoors #staytrue


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What an amazing trip with some badass babes! . . This was one of the craziest mountains I've have ever climbed so far. (Mt. Theilsen)We made it about 9,000ft and made our own personal summit. It got extremely sketchy and we made a choice to turn around being approx 200ft from the summit. I'm so grateful for the ladies in my life that empower, encourage and love without judgment. Thank you ladies for being so inspirational. This trip was one for the books! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #centraloregon #chickswhoclimbmountains #mountainclimbers #handoverhand #scramble #summitsisters #cutfromthesamecloth #womenwhohike #oregonlife #mountainlife #campcoffee #beautyintheclimb #donttredonme #lifteachotherup #motivation #diamondlake #lemololake #craterlake #umquaforest . . @pacificnwwanderer


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I'm so excited and so proud of this young man. He is officially a 6th grader! . . This will be a new beginning, new experiences and learning. I can't wait to continue to watch you grow! I love you my mini man cub! You are going to rock this year! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #proudmomma #dontgrowtoofast #mylittlemancub #myfirstborn #mommalovesyou


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Today was awesome all together! . . I was amazed at how many times Jackson made a basket considering he doesn't try shooting baskets ever. . . But today at work I had a window of time where it was just Jackson and I. He was non stop kicking ass and loving playing basketball! He's such a natural. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #babybasketball #bball #sports #naturalbasketballplayer


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A couple weekends ago we had such a fun family night out with nana and justin with live music and dancing in park. One of the best nights ever! . . @bluesbaby53 #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #music #livemusic #local #musicinthepark #concertsandcoverbands


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Sketti Our new house has a diner motif in the kitchen -and it’s ADORABLE. Kinda like this little tootsie. #lifeiniowa #ottumwa #bigfamily #retro #vivacious #livebigorgohome


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It felt AMAZING!!! To get back in to the gym tonight! . . After work is hard for me because I usually have the kiddos and the daycare at the gym is closed by the time I get out of work. . . Luckily I was able to get my sweat on in my new @letemflygear_com shirt! This is such a killer comfy shirt! I can't get over how nice this shirt feels. And ofcourse I couldn't help but to match it with my kickass hat from the badass one and only @kailacumings !! Y'all are inspiring. Much love. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #keeppushingforward #keephammering #BFORWARDFITNESS #swollife #gymlife #strongwoman #imbackbaby #andimfeelinggood #fitforhunting #GWG #grindhard #workdontwhine #letemfly #babeswithknives #aftersummit


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Continued from first post...It truly is just you and the mountain face to face gracefully forcing your eyes to widen to see the bigger picture. It shows you things about yourself you didn't realize where there and so much more. This trip has lots of hilarious stories in between all the emotions and deep parts of ourselves. Losing half my water leaking out of my pack, mosquitoes galore, no bottle opener, getting sunburnt, a blister popping, learning to use a camp stove, almost running out of gas, finding the last camp spot and many more! I am extreamly proud of you Melissa for so many reasons! You are incredibly strong! I love your drive and motivation to just be yourself and to love it no matter what. I am grateful for you my friend and excited for our next adventures! For I feel this is a new beginning in many ways for both of us! THE MOUNTAINS ARE CALLING... . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #easternoregonhasmyheart #womenwhohike #trails #hiking #truegrit #nevergiveup #southsistersummit #gettingthesummithigh #summitsisters #blisters #gettinglost #findingyourself #themountainsarecalling


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Enjoying this beautiful night and this view 👌🙌 #livingmybestlife #livebigorgohome. #condolife #penthouseview #on top


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Some family came in from out of town to visit their mom. It's been an emotional month. But things are going okay. It was so wonderful to spend time with family this weekend. I miss you guys already! . . @cindy_roo7 #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #oregonocean #oregonlife #oregoncoast #waves


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I haven't been posting much. But I had to share this one of a kind wedding we DJ for. It was a Goth setting in the woods. It was one of the coolest, most laid back weddings ever and such amazing folks! . . The details of the decorations and music, everything just came together so beautifully! Then they had our friends from Kingdom Under Fire play an up close and personal killer set to end the night. . . Watching the bride and groom moshing was the highlight of the year. Congratulations you two!! Your love shines bright and your love story brought tears to my eyes. Cheers! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #metalwedding #forestmetal #gothicstyle #metalforlife


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It's been on the bucket list for a while now. And I couldn't thank @pacificnwwanderer for being such a motivator, kick ass friend and our growing adventure lifestyle! . . We have been through a lot together on and off the mountain and I couldn't be more grateful for her in many ways! I admire her drive, dedication and giddy attitude that matches mine when it comes to the outdoors. Hiking South sister with my adventure soul sister! Two more sleeps!! . . No matter who comes along for the adventure, it will always be you against the mountain and I can promise you that she will humble you with everything she's got. . . Cheers! To getting lost and finding ourselves. . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #mountainchicks #onesummitatatime #strength #truegrit #nevergiveup #sisters #easternoregonhasmyheart #onefootinfrontoftheother #adventures #trails #hiking #


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My mom @bluesbaby53 and I got to share our first 5K run together today. We ran in honor of her sister (my aunt) Janet who recently found out has stage 4 cancer. F*CK CANCER! She's in great spirits and is taking it day by day. We love you aunt Janet! Today was for you! . . Today is just beyond beautiful day! I felt so wonderful seeing my family after the race! Thank you love for being such a huge support! . . I'm so proud of you mom! We kicked some butt! Got our first race in the books! I can't wait to do it again! I'm grateful for all of you! . . "I was run.in." - Forest Gump . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #starsandstripes #freedomrun #wethepeople #4thofjuly #onefootinfrontoftheother #keeppushingforward #keephammering #running


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Enjoyin a key largo lager with the pops at florida keys brewing co. #thewaywelive #livingmybestlife #chillin #livebigorgohome


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#Repost @debbiezollermakeup with @make_repost ・・・ Happy Birthday to #bobfosse You have changed my world! Bob would have been 92 today. #gonetoosoon #fosseverdon #verdonfosselegacy #fosseverdonfx #dancer #director #choreographer #livebigorgohome #nicolefosse #makeupdesigner #makeupartist


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More summer shenanigans. Family time, family movie night watching Aladdin, water balloons, sunshine, walk to pick up trash, celebration of life and the list continues! I'm extremely excited for summer with the kiddos! . . #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #ilovemyfamily #ilovemykids #waterballoons #summerfun #feelingblessed #feelingfull


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Last weekend was such an amazing trip with these beautiful ladies. It was much needed and we kicked some ass. We beat the crowd and the heat. The food after is always delicious and the time spent was filling. Thank you ladies for always being down to adventure! . . @pacificnwwanderer @feliciaroyce #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #trailtrio #adventures #womenwhohike #strongwoman #truegrit #nevergiveup #thegorge #green #trails #hiking


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Today has been a rough one. Eye opening. . . A couple nights ago I had this crazy dream. In that dream, I had died. I don't know how I died, I just knew. . . I was, I guess floating? above as our kids were gathered together crying and asking their father where mommy was... seeing the pain and sadness and Tauren having to be strong for the kids with really no answers for them... was the hardest thing I had to see. I felt helpless. I really don't know why I'm sharing this other then it shook me, and hard. . . Maybe it's because I'm always thinking of my friends and what they are all going through this year and or because I'm getting older and death kind of comes with the territory? . . I know dreams are dreams or some deeper meaning etc. But this dream has lingered for days now. I was in a zombie like state yesterday and today, it just really slapped me in the face. I tried extremely hard to not cry at the gym. I just couldn't get it out of my head no matter how much cardio I did. I eventually broke and couldn't hold it in any longer and cried a little. . . Life is crazy, nothing is permanent, everything changes (a lot of time without warning). Let the negative shit go, love hard, be present in the moments, believe in yourself and believe in others. . . I just want to Express my love for you all and that I appreciate every single one of you. If you guys ever need anything at all, let me know. . . You only die once. You have EVERYDAY to live. . . @relentlesshntr #rideordie #momlife #momoffive #greatful #family #livebigorgohome #outdoorsismylife #hungryforlife #pnw #pacificnorthleft #lifteachotherup #motivation #ironmaidens #bombmoms #momswholift #grindhard #coffee #truegrit #nevergiveup #flexeveryday #cardiosuckssogood #fitforhunting #keeppushingforward #BFORWARDFITNESS #lovehard #crazydreams #deathdreams #loveyourlife #ilovemyfamily #built4thehunt


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