// From the bottom of my heart. // . .
I know, that you know these days I am writing about you. I don't know exactly when did you become my habit, I don't know when did I give you the place of my secret keeper, I don't know when I opened my soul infront of you, I don't know when you started understanding me like no one, I don't know how did you guessed everything correctly before I told you, I don't know was it all coincidence or you are something similar to me, I don't know when everything will suddenly disappear, I don't know how long I'll be able to do this, I don't know how will you react after reading all this, I don't know what it is, I don't know weather I am your secret keeper or you talk to everyone like this, I don't know when, but all at sudden I developed a soft corner for you.
I mostly think of doing the most stupidest thing, Everytime I tell you something stupid I think in my mind "I need to stop all this." Everytime I talk to you a little longer than usual I tell myself it's getting weird "I need to stop all this." You know how small my world is, how there's only few people I interect with, how I don't want to increase the no. of people in my life. Everytime I tell you about how people are hurting me, it feels like i am giving you a chance to hurt me "I need to stop all this." Everytime I find myself weak, I search for you to tell you, how things are messed up again but then I tell myself "I need to stop all this." After telling thousands of times, after knowing things gonna hurt me later, I still wish you good morning just to tell myself "I need to stop all this." When that night I cried, I didn't want to show you that I am such a mess, still I failed to lie, but I don't know how many times I'll tell myself "I need to stop all this." .
#napowrimo Day 10 . .
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