This morning I realized I'm lost in my life.
I'm anxiously waiting for the point of it. I'm waiting for it too look nice and pretty; for the fighting and messes to stop, for my chance to return to my carrier. I'm working on hitting my goals like the road taking me to them is a bother and a nuisance.
I recently tried to read a book and it took to long to get to the content of the book so it's laying around here somewhere taking up space. It was also waisting my time.
While I'm waiting for my life to become what I always imagined it to be, the mundane daily life has been extremely annoying and bothersome. I want to think I'm made for better things then changing peed beds, breaking up fights, making hot chocolate and cleaning up cereal everyday. Or I feel entitled to some me time in the morning before the messes and fights. I don't enjoy sharing my mornings with loud little people. But someday they will grow up and be quiet.
All the more experienced moms say enjoy it. And I just think ya, they didn't put their life on hold and have my kids!!! So today I'm going to try to focus on the life I have at the moment and enjoy the snotty kisses and loud unproductive mornings. I'll continue to work on my goals but I want to be gracious and enjoy the journey with my little people. If I can't enjoy the life I have I'll probably not enjoy the life that comes with the changes I want.
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