Having close due dates with your family and friends is not easy and especially if it's the same exact day and your pregnancy ends in a miscarriage.
I can remember last year when my sister told me she was pregnant and she didn't know yet that I was. She felt guilty for telling me, because of all my miscarriages but I was so excited for her and told her how much of a blessing it was and that I was pregnant. I asked her how far a long and she didn't know.
She went to the dr a few days later and called and told me how far a long she was. I was silent and honestly my heart broke. We were exactly the same in our length of pregnancy and had the same EXACT due date 🤦♀️. I was going to have to go through this with knowing I might have another miscarriage.
I did. I had another miscarriage about 7 weeks. The pain and emotion of losing a baby then knowing I was going to watch my sister go through her pregnancy was DIFFICULT. Her gender reveal, the drs apts, the tests, the baby shower, baby clothes, decorating his room, and the due date.
My sister asked me to be in there when she delivered my nephew. Of course I was going to be. While I was waiting to be taken back to the delivery room for her c section, I cried. I was suppose to be giving birth too. My family and friends are suppose to be going back and forth from my room and hers seeing the babies, but that wasn't happening. I cried for days before and days after. I want to hold my own baby.
I'm so thankful for a healthy baby nephew and delivery for my sister. I was the 1st person to hold him and show him love. It was so beautiful.
Sharing a due date is so much more than a date. It's baby showers, birthdays, 1st time walking, 1st words, 1st hugs and kisses, preschool, teaching them new things, and so much more. It's always having a constant reminder of where your baby would be in correlation with them.
That miscarriage was so much harder than my other miscariages, but I kept reminding myself of how much a blessing it is to have a baby and how my nephew and nieces have many cousin angels watching over them. My nephew is our blessing and I'm so thankful we get to celebrate his birthday. Happy 1st birthday K.