You’ll never see me suffer
Ill never show failure.
Last week was one of the hardest weeks I’ve ever gone through.
THURSDAY, I struggled with Autumn so much. She would cry only with me. And I was trying so hard to give Andrea a break. I wanted to take care of everything, but Autumn was being so fussy. Not sleeping, crying if she wasnt held. Sleep for 10min then wake up and cry for hella long. I was getting so frustrated.
FRIDAY, I tried to make a night out for Andrea and I. Just so she can get a break and relax. But that went down hill fast when we got back home. (Drama).
SATURDAY, I get home from the gym, not 3min in the door. And Andrea says we gotta go to the ER, Autumn has fluid leaking out of her ear. Get to Alta Bates spend 4hrs there, just for them to tell us to go to Children’s in Oakland. At the hospital from 3pm-9pm. With my daughter being analyzed and poked with thermometers. They give us prescription for ear drops 😒. Then my insurance hasnt put Autumn on our coverage yet. Costing us $500 for some lil freaking ear drops!!
SUNDAY finally came around. I was sitting in bed with Andrea after apologizing for my frustration. And for some reason, I couldn’t control my crying. I hate crying in front of my wife, it makes me feel weak. And I want her to know im a tough man, and will protect her from any situation. However, I couldn’t control my emotions. I said im sorry so much for crying in front of her.
I went to the gym every morning that week. Coached clients, and was up beat and energetic. Nobody knew what was going on. Im a very tough guy, most of you know this about me. And I never let my stress show. I dont look for sympathy from others, and I dont play the “why me” card.
Throw a smile on, and tough it out. Things always get better, and you’ll be stronger when you get out of the crap storm.
Be tough, be strong. 💪🏽 #Redmanfitness